eating right isn't always fun :-(

I am trying to lose 15 lbs before race day. I am starting off trying to lose 2 lbs per week, hoping that this will get me some initial momentum and inspiration. So far, I just lose the weight and gain it back. I have a 5 pound range I go through every couple of weeks. I have so many issues with foods. I have learned unhealthy habits! I eat when I am stressed, eat when I am angry, eat when I'm depressed, eat when I want to celebrate, eat when I am frustrated, eat when I'm sleepy, and eat when I'm bored. It makes it really hard to lose any weight. The only time I can stick to my plan is when I am emotionless! I am going to begin a new diet called the Vulcan diet. I reduce my caloric intake by meditating and focusing on eliminating emotion. If I am successful, I will write a book and make millions.

I love to eat healthy. Some of my favorite foods are fruits and vegetables. I prefer wheat over white bread, and don't drink non-diet soda. The problem is, I stick to my plan for a week or two, and then I lose control, and eat all the calories I'd been avoiding. It can be so heartbreaking sometimes. I feel like my brain is trying to trick me into eating. I find myself making excuses for my indulgence. "You ran a lot today" "you need the fuel for tomorrow's bike ride" "What's the big deal? It's not like you're fat" "you had a stressful day, enjoy something tasty" "you've got plenty of time before the race, why lose so much now?" I wish I knew how to fight it . . . ::sobbing::